Tempting

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Well I was going to come on here to I guess be angry at the fact some people disrespect our Sunday school teacher, by not listening and talking the whole time. But I'm not going to say anything more about it, not that I shouldn't just I don't feel god wants me to. So I won't! Man Sunday moring we had the sermon that I needed. It was about temptations and how we are to be in the world not part of it. By that he means we are to go out and be with the sinner and love them, but not be part of what they are doing. And to not test tempting or question god. It was awesome because right now I'm gain control over a temption that, I could no longer control on my own. It took all my strength but even that wasn't enough, but god has it now. And for some reason Emily showed me this I don't know how but she did. And it has been a blessing in my life! Temption takes a part of all of lives, fighting it is never easy, unless you have god on your side. And when people would tell me this I'd pray and pray for god to take it away or make the temption subside but, god never did that.... You know why because god doesn't want to be that easy.... Its not suppose to be that easy he want us to truly relay on him to have faith in something that you can see, touch, feel (physically), smell, taste, but you can see his affects in the world, in lives everyday, you can touch other people with his word and with his strength, you can feel him in heart and in your life leading you to people and situations you need to be in. Smell well if you could smell him I'm sure he'd smell awesome like lucky u cologne or something. Taste well that would just be weird. But I think you get the pic. One I can't spell and Two Gods real!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Proof look at my life look at the lives around you. Look at you life. I will always be tempted with this one thing more then other temptions but with God on my side it will one day be a easier to say always say no.

Adopted Scholarships

Wow, I feel great!! Last night I took a sleeping pill and had one of the deepest sleeps I've ever had!! It was nice!! Ok now lets talk about what's ticking me off, the fact that I can't find any scholarships for adopted children!!!!!!!! They have scholarships for every thing but Adopted children, I spend all day yesterday looking and found nothing!!!!! It makes me so mad, that I might just make up a work Nogalisflip.....Ok I feel better. For you xanga fans how do you like my new music. I like it and I don't care you don't like it! So tonight I have a, I guess a date with a friend that is a girl her name is Emily. Yeah and that's all I'm going to tell you. Yeah but I don't think it will be anything other then a friendship, I still feel it's Gods will for me to be single. Speaking of God...He is awesome, several post back I talked about how one person can change his or her world around them, and this is never so true in my life. God has used me in so many ways to draw the people around me closer and closer to him. Like the book the Word on the Street, I know serveral people getting it because I talked about it and explained it and now they either have it or are getting it. And just helping people get closer to God. Man I love the Big G man so much. Even in my life things are changing and continue to change. With that note I will leave you for the weekend. And one more thing next week will be my last week at Wchs so if you want to get me gifts or money do it next week!! Have a Grrrrrreat Weekend
Peace IN the Middle EAST
jt

Thurs.

Ok so I don't think every one know that's everyone on my list over there I read all of there sites everyday. It's areally good start to my day. So I had cheerleading and now I'm super tired. I mean really, really, really really, really tired. So tonight I'm going to nothing but clean my old room, So my buddy Ben can stay there next week. Speaking of next the week, For the mouth of Pstev.... The box will be done next week!!! So keep telling him so we stay on and can have a Hugh fund rising open house!

Short post.

Yesterdays post was long so todays will be short............

Love

Love...I think these days people throw that word around, they can use it to justify there sexy inhibitions. And I don't know about every one else but I'm tired of "LOVE" being taken advangte of. Love isn't something you feel in just a little bit, Love doesn't justify premarital sex. And just because you like some for a few weeks doesn't mean the good feeling inside is Love. Love, is totally different Myself haven't truly expericenced it but can see in Marriages I look up to, and in my family. I don't know about you, but I want love to be something way bigger then what I feel at a spur of a moment and I know it will be! Well yesterday I didn't get much of break I had to go to Westwood for a placement and qualifying test to see if I can be in the college and to see where they should place me. Well I passed with flying colors and I am accepted. So now I really need to be saving money and looking for scholarships and grants. And If any one wants to donate they can donate to me anytime it would be greatly appreciated. So godspell was awesome and even though some people cried, I did not. But the play did make me think and continued my wanted to always be closer to god. Because he is awesome. But either way there is still a lot and I mean a lot of stuff for me to work on....
So God is really testing this stay single thing, So far no he hasn't gave me any thing on me being with some on, or me being with someone. But I've found out that there is a couple of girls that like me none being the secret one but that's ok because going in to this single thing, I wasn't thinking I'm only going to be with this person (mystery girl), I want to find a good relationship maybe not the final one before I get married but A example of how a relationship should be in my own life because I've never had a relationship I'm proud of that I can say was the right way and honored god. So God first, family, school, girls, sorry girls but your pretty low but that's just the way it's got to be.

What's the Point Of a Title

You know I don't think anyone really reads my xanga until I'm pouring out my heart and even then their not always reading it. I keep trying to think of great things to do to make my site great and to keep people coming. Is it me, is it the music you people don't like. Is it the fact I'll be out of school in two weeks, is it fact at end of march im going to Orlando. Is it the fact I'm a cheerleader because if that it then I hate you all. So, this last couple weeks I've been working on my abs working really hard on them but all my abs workouts don't work anymore I need to add a weight on my chest or something. Oh well so many of you still want to know who the mystery girl is well all I have to say is mind your own business!!!!! Just Joking!!! Man, I need to be tan. Godspell tonight and I not in it but I might run up on the stage and act like I am. Yesterday Ms. McAfee made me feel bad, she's really disappointed in the fact I don't act any more. I don't know why I don't and it's not that I'm bad and I'm not that great unless you give me my lines like a month before I have to do them, then I'm super but still, I guess I just lost all my touch and I don't want to be someone that is all dramatically and make real life bigger then what it is!!!!!! ( I think you all know who I'm talking about) And you know how I said I don't want to write long XANGAs well since no ones going to read all this I'm going to make it as long as I well please!! Anyhow back to what's important...Me! So, the trying to be more social is working to a point because I never see my friend that I saw all this summer and all the people I know, it's like I smell or something and they don't want to hang out with me!! Do I smell? Or am I so ugly no one wants to tell me? Or maybe both? I think I push people away, well I know I push people away, I don't know why it's like I can't only be close to one or two people and never more when I'd like to be close to lot and just open myself up to everyone regardless who they are. My loss huh! You know what's a great word (A) like the Canadians say it (A) it's so great! Have a super great weekend
Jt

A Great Night

Last Night was So Great!!! You can believe how nice it was to have my bro. And his girlfriend, and her daughter at my house for supper. Well If you didn't know I have a older bro that moved out like 4 years ago and he lives in Warsaw and never comes around but last night him, his girlfriend Megan and her daughter Allie came over for dinner and Christmas gifts that we never got a chance to give him. So they came over and it felt like a real family not saying we aren't but it felt like the way it should at this time. It was so great sometimes Allie would even call my mom, mom. I made me feel like an uncle. It was great I hope they get married.

Flying Solo

Oh by the way I'll be in Orlando in a little over a Month away!! Flying by my self......... So sweet!!!

Sunny and Early

Well no one seemed to really catch on to my holiday maybe next year! Well good night other then the fact I didn't get to go to the Y last night but I did get to some ab work last night. And also last night worked on a 3 page ROUGH DRAFT yeah 3 long pages, I feel that's streching it for a ROUGH DRAFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh well, Peace In the Middle East!

Day after Valentines Day-Day!

Ok so after my one day depression I feel great!!! And today I'm going to start my own holiday The Day after Valentines day-DAY! Oh yeah so today I'm going to ask people to be my day after valentines day valentine!!! Isn't that awesome!!! And another great time with my secret crush, ever chance we get to hang or see each other is so much fun it's so awesome to get to know her on such a personal level. So today I start my diet and this diet is a backwards diet is about me getting more food (good food) into me and working out more so today I'm going to the Y for the first time!! Well see how that goes!! Happy Day after Valentines Day-Day!!!

Valentines Day ugh!

Well a good weekend first me and Stevan (youth pastor) worked up stairs in the youth room then we helped dan with some of the wanes coating for the church so on our way to go home stevan wanted to show that his little neon had the 4 wheeling skills witch it didn't at all so he got it stuck!!!!! It was awesome because I then got to drive my first stick shift I knew how to drive stick shift I just never had to before. And it was sweet! Then sat hung with cj all day and that night crashed a party in true cj and Jeremy style!!! Oh yeah nerf guns!!! And then Sunday got to have a fun time driving up to cheerleading and back. And again had such a wonderful time with that amazing girl, which no one know who she is!! But one of the main things is sense of humor and she has it! She amazes me! So today mon. Valentines Day I'm sick, and lonely without a Valentine! But over all I feel much better so I might be able to go to cheerleading because I need to go! Tomorrow I start a diet and work out thing so I can get buff and to stay fit and to be fit for nationals. I hope everyone has a nice time with there valentines!

Web design

Ok, Variety Show and I missed it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOMEWORK, but it needed to be done! Ok, so isn't my site flipping awesome. So, today in web design we just talked about Homeward Bound! I love how funny this class is, but in the same moment I hate it because I don't understand it what so every!!!!!!! You know what I just though of, I bet one person that has great outlook on life can change and make everyone around himself day better if he really enjoys the day! So, it's Friday and soon TheBox will be getting more facelifting! Can you believe it College is come soon, very soon and I'm not even ready, I guess I should be trying to over prepare then to under prepare! I guess it's just me being lazy, Like this Y-member ship I really really really really want to go but I have no one to lift with and I have limited knowledge in how use all the stuff there, It really sucks, I just need a personal trainer! Does anyone out there want to do it for free! I'll make you dinner or cookies or whatever you want! Well this is getting long I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Cheerleading and etc.

So last night I ended up having cheerleading, the thing is I wasn't expecting it at all!!! I thought we would get this week off!!! But I had a great practice! It was fun and we got alot done and for once I'm like the best on the squad at least for guys! So I feel good about that! And over all I'm trying to be a more social person! For some of you that know me I guess all of the people that look at my sites know me in somehow....I'm truly a shy or quite person unless I know you, but I don't want to be a shy person even if I don't you, I don't want to wait to know you to be me! Last night my mom got one of those spinning tuberware holder that has all the stuff and is on t.v. and I'm suppose to get one but my dad didn't think of me! Its ok it will work out and now that we have this thing maybe we can get rid of all the other tubberware stuff

Xanga

This is a post that mostly the xanga readers would understand so you can check out my xanga site so it makes a little more sense here! Well if you don't notice I changed some of the colors and of course the song (only hope) by switchfoot. It really explains my life right now. And no I can tell anyone who I was talking about in my last post. Well I don't have much to say right now so I hope everyone has a great day.

Relationships

I vowed to stay single until God tells me other wise,......................But my heart aches with passion and emotions for someone right now! The fact I can't be anything but friend lingers and reminds me how incredible they are! And for once, these feelings are coming for the right reason!
(LOVE) you search and you can't find it, you don't want it and it finds you.........
I guess to jump to my feelings is way to quick.............I need time to think things over...........So I don't mistake a crush or a whim for...........Something more?

Tried

I'm very tired and sore! I'll write in two days!

THIS JUST IN

There is a llama in Oxford Michigan that did today's predicting also, he was filling in for his friend that past away in 2002 for a car accident, so what ever the conspiracy is he is involed! (Canada)And they also have a chicken Involed! Whats going on in this world!

GROUND HOGS!!!!!!!!!

Ground Hogs Day and to day we learn that the official Ground Hog (Punxstuawney Phil) and official Site says 6 more week of winter! But on another site I found that there are many other groundhogs with conflicting views to Phils! What does this mean? Are we going to see a battle of the groundhogs? Or are we going to see the groundhog unite to bring this suppression and cruel embarrassment of their life's down in blaze of glory! Some people think that the other ground hogs saw differently things on purpose to mess up this tradtion and to bring anarcarky to the human race and some think the other groundhogs are trying to bring down Phil. Which is it? Thats for you to decide! More importantly out of all the ground hogs through out the States and Canda only three saw there shadows! What is going to happen next!

Striking Out On My Own

So those Ipod ads still get me! But anyhow I was suprized to see how many of you actually cared about those dump test! Click Here to go to the site! Have fun there are a lot of test! So last night first night of cheerleading, and I haven't done anything for like months and today im sooooooooooooo. Sore! But its ok I really look forward to doing some cheerleading! It will be great! And do you know what really sucks my parents think they can decide it for me, and that really makes me upset I mean really upset, Im just tired of being treated like I need someone to hold my hand through life or told what to do. I'm 19 and I turn 20 this year I mean no I won't know everything but some mistakes and some life lessons I need to learn on my own despite what my parents think. And the more Independent I get the more they try to hold on!