....let that be enough

Emily Jones help to give me the push I needed, to be cared enough to make me want to change, I've all ways wanted to change but now I steped out of fight and give it to God. If you wondering what i'm talking about it's porn. I've struggled in and out of it since I was 12. I'm not proud of any of my actions and i'm not tell anyone this for my gain or to talk up Emily, no it's to give God the glory and praise because without him I have nothing. And the truth is you really got to get to a point where you want to get over it and find someone, anyone that pushes you and want to make you accountable of you sin, someone you can be honest with. And no i'm not saying i'm over those feelings that are inside, the thoughts and images that pop up, or how I look at women,......looking at her, and not at certain areas of intrest, but her as a person. It's getting way better but it's far from over but I will get through this, this time there is no other choice my life depends on it...........everyonce in awhile this thought, this figuretive sitution a choice, to have a one night stand to take that instand gradifiction, and throw away the life I could have the life I want to have. And i'm scared that choice will actually be faceing me in real life. I know the choice I have to make in my mind and heart. Above all God is in this but emily has be his tool, she is such a great friend.